Memories and Ashes

This is the first post in a long time. Almost a year. I wanted to get back in traveling mode. I am back in Bahia, were I lived for 4 months last year. I sa almost all the people that I used to live with and it was so much fun! But today I am writing for an other reason.

I am writing to say my goodbyes to the first place I called home in San Francisco. The block in between Powell and Columbus on union burned down yesterday. In that block I spent most of my free time the first 2 years living in the city. Rogue is where I started to appreciate beer, where I met most of my best friends, where most of them used to work. Rogue was never just a bar, Rogue was family, Rogue was my living room, it was my home, my kitchen…even my bedroom sometimes 😉

North Beach will not be the same without.And I really wanted to say a last goodbye.

Also I don’t know why I have all these pictures of Mike and Nam but it was very fun to go through them 😉

It will be hard to come home and not walk in … Always in our hearts


two lives two hearts

I have been back for 3 months now.                                                                                         Finally got my own bedroom, got back to normal city life, working 2/3 jobs, not sleeping probably enough, always something to do.  I don’t know how people find balance in general, I found it deciding to live 2 lives, half of the year travelling, resting and curing my self and learning from other cultures and half of the year working, making bank and learning from my friends. I find it perfect, and one half could not exist without the other half.



Machu Picchu

Machu Picchu was intense, what I will remember better will be STAIRS..WP_20170416_089.jpg

Stairs every where, going down, going up… damn how many stairs…

What amazed me the most of Machu Picchu? of course, the history behind it, it was not discovered for the longest time, that is why it so perfectly preserved… but for me, it was a challenge, I am not a hiker, nor a walker in any way… But when I got there I decided to climb everything I could… and in the middle of all the stairs I always thought that maybe I could just go back, because it was a bit too much for me.. but I never did, and climbed till the highest top. I decide that moment that I was not going to stop. hiking, traveling, learning….. living…

that was Machu Picchu for me… discovery… that you can do what ever you want, if you really want it..WP_20170416_040

Gipsy heart

Gipsy heart

I want you all to try to remember that one time when you felt so happy you literally wanted to cry, when you felt that feeling of just pure joy ..that you don’t know where to fit it all, that you feel like you are exploding, that you want to tell the whole world what you just discovered: that life is amazing, the world is a masterpiece and people are magicians that cast love spells.

Traveling is incredible. I feel another person. I feel free, strong, everything is really possible, you start thinking outside the box for real, you don’t have to worry about paying bills, going to a job you don’t like, doing things you don’t want to do..and it’s all possible. Someone that I just met and changed my life, probably for ever, told me that where there is ‘want’ there will be ‘will’ (translating from other languages it doesn’t sound so great but you understand the sense). You CAN do anything you WANT with your life, and if you understand that, you WILL.

I met people that saw in me what I was not quite ready to see. I was scared because the world tells us that we need a house, a job, a family..stability… and you can’t get all that while you travel…. but I never felt as stable as right now.. with nothing. It’s a completely new feeling and I love it. ‘No plans’ sometimes is the best plan. And thank you for giving me the strength to trust myself to the point of pursuing this. In your deep eyes I saw it..


I started pushing myself  beyond what I thought I could do, even with hiking, just one more step, one more stair. Guess what, one more step, only one and one more, and you get to the top of the mountain.


And on the top of the mountain I found myself, and when you find yourself, you find love.IMG_3025



Traveling=Burning Man

Traveling=Burning Man

This is my day thought.

Traveling is like being at Burning man..

You are out of your comfort zone, you are putting yourself in an awkward place. You are meeting new people with different points of view and you are trying to connect with them.

You don’t wanna loose any time because you only have that much time, no useless conversations, if someone is not appealing than you just say good bye.

You learn how to say no, I am not interested!! but you always give people at least half an hour of possible conversation to give them a chance to express themselves.

You meet people that are amazing and that are experiencing the same hunger of knowledge that you are experiencing.

You are pushed to be the best you can and the most independent you can, every day.

When you are in trouble you usually meet people that can help you solve your problems, Playa provides = world provides.

There is no stranger when you are traveling, we are all travelers.

You have to have your shit together and you can be your total self and start new every time you move.

If you are a good traveler you know how to make a place better than you found it.

You always try to participate in the local things to feel part of something.

Traveling as going to Burning Man opens up your heart, your mind and your soul. It’s beautiful while you are experiencing it and it can be a bit sad when it ends, but getting to your every day’s life with the new energy is just as amazing as being around the world because you can spread the love and the new energy with you people, your home.



Bahia de Caraquez

Bahia de Caraquez

And here I am.. in Lima, no more mosquitoes, no more sleepless night because of heat..

Lima is beautiful, it reminds me of Torino for some reason.. I really like it.

I have been here for 5 days now, I am in a great hostel, 1900 Backpackers, I made new friends… I have been happy.. but tonight, as a lightning, I realized I was not going back to my Bahia….

I weeped (like seriously weeped) alone… I was ready to leave Bahia because of all of the drama that I unfortunately got into the last weeks .. but now that I am far away I am realizing how much I will miss it.

I will miss going to see the sunset every day and attempt to have yoga sessions while the tide is rising just to eventually jump in the water..

I will miss having Avriel waking me up at stupid hours in the morning to go to the gym (I know, I am actually saying this..and I actually did it..)

I will miss going to eat encebollado with a big headache with Tessa and Avriel just because we have to get up and feel better..

I will miss dancing like there is no tomorrow with the whole group, until the sun rises.

I will miss sitting on the wall (el muro) drinking and dancing under the rain.

I will miss even Henry’s training sessions that left me without air for at least 1 hour after they were done…but were always followed by the best margaritas or beers.

I will miss all the amazing people that always kept me in a good mood even when things were going a bit wrong…

All the smiles, the nature, the love, the understanding and the intense research for a better future.

Bahia de Caraquez is lucky to have so many amazing people caring for it.

The energy that I felt there was impressive, for some reason there are heroes that stop there and try their best to fix this beautiful town, and when I say Heroes I am not exaggerating.. I was living with Heroes.

I wish all the best to them, and I thank them for letting me be part of it for a little.

I will never forget what I learned in these 5 months.

They changed me, from deep inside, all, the good and bad, but especially the good.

I love you Bahia. I will be back.

last clinic day

last clinic day

These pictures come from my last day volunteering for the amazing clinic of Walking Palms.

I will share with you all the pictures, but before I wanted to thanks this amazing people for being part of my trip, for opening my eyes and teaching me so much.

I thank Avriel Rose Diaz for her energy, for starting this project, for all the sacrifices she made and still is making, and all the risks she is taking for this project. I saw her passion in the 4 months I lived with her and it is contagious!!!! Her happiness is almost unreal. She is the one that keeps everyone stuck in Bahia, for sure!!!  IMG_2773

Then thanks to David Madden, the nurse, yoga instructor and friend. He, with Avriel, is .the starter of this project (him on the left). Impossible not to be in a good mood around him, his positive way of looking at life was inspiring, even in the most critic moments he was the one keeping calm, never got annoyed to any one, always understanding everyone’s necessities.

An other huge thanks goes to all the volunteers that worked together to make this possible and fun.

To volunteer as a photographer for them was not only fun and inspiring but also a learning experience, there are so many things we don’t know about the people that we encounter in our path that we should remember to stop and analyze every possible angle before we let our mind judge. A lot of times I forget that the person that is making me angry has a family, has problems and probably has a harder time than me in general. It’ s easy, especially here, to get very annoyed at people for their behaviour. More difficult is to step back and realize what is causing that behaviour. With this I am absolutely not saying that we should not get mad or offended, but we should give them the tools to learn. Some people are just cold and ignorant inside and there is not much we can do about that, we can find them everywhere, all over the planet, but here there are a lot of people that just don’t know any better: they don’t know that cat calling is super offensive, that a line is a place where everyone waits for his turn, that you don’t talk on the phone during a movie or that using the honk of your car every half second is not necessarily nice for everyone else. Talking with one of the person from the little community I realized they didn’t even know that plastic never decompose..!!!!! This lady thought it was exactly like paper but more resistant.

What Walking Palms is doing is amazing. They don’t only try to fix the symptoms, they try to fix the whole problem by educating the communities to eat better, be healthier, be careful and aware of diseases and treat their piece of earth a little bit better.

One more thanks to all the doctors and psychologist that came to volunteer. Looking at them working one day after the other, one person after the other made me realize that no matter how much you helped today there will be more help needed tomorrow. You can’t help every one, and you should always be proud of yourself and feel happy when you can help some one, but don’t stop.

There is always need.